When we think we have things in control we are pretty sure of our ideas, our opinions and ourselves. That’s until we feel out of control; then we lose sleep, we worry and we have anxiety.
What do you do when you are unsure of yourself, what to do next, are confused, unclear and feel out of control? If you’re like me, you are apt to get down on yourself, and you try to figure it out and analyze it. There might also be some making it wrong thrown in for good measure.
I’ve been told that my gift is that I know how to live life on the edge between float and flow. Float, as in floating without direction not going anywhere. Flow as in going somewhere effortlessly. One is banal and the other has purpose. I think I can navigate life well because I can wait for the mud to settle and for the water to become clear before I move. I let things emerge from what I see, feel and sense.
That is until I don’t. Then I become heavy, driven and unforgiving of myself. For me I am not wrong when I let this happen, because it’s part of being human. Coming back to Flow is wisdom. Not worrying about it is just a way to not suffer.
How does one wait till the mud settles and remain unmoving until right action arises by itself? (hint: I have the answer)
Maybe we gain control by letting go… something like settling in to the not knowing. I think it’s called surrender. Like falling into a big comfy chair.
“Do you have the patience to wait
till your mud settles and the water is clear?
Can you remain unmoving
till the right action arises by itself”